I’m watching “Oliver!” After doing this show twice in one season when I wad 15 I never would have believed I would be willing to sit through it again… But I’m enjoying it. I am remembering all sorts of things that happened during that period of my life. I’m much happier now.

The weekend was… uhm… fabulous. The weekend began on Thursday for me. I got to go spend a little bit of time with a nifty boy in Davis and dance with him. Anna’s graduation was remarkably painless. I enjoyed meeting her boy. He is cute and sweet and polite. I wish he knew that she is mad for him. erf. Dancing Friday night was pretty good. There were many missing faces that I mourned, but such is life. I had several nice boys choose to ask me to dance multiple times and that was swell. Saturday was a good talk with Tom. Relationship stuff. As isn’t much of a shock things are strange with Tom. I think things have been strange with Tom since I fell in love with him. I’m starting to take some of his quirks less personally, which is a big deal. It is significant personal progress on my part in general. I love him, and I have some hard choices to make soon.

Saturday night was Black Sheets. Damn was it hot. I had a blast. I had sex with Dad much to my still freaked-outedness. I haven’t finished processing that act. I’m working on it. It was scary. It actually was really painful and not that erotic. I don’t like his piercing. The blowjob was more fun than the penetration, but such is life. 🙂 He is really happy about it. He thinks it will bring us closer. I don’t know. I was already very attached to him and I don’t see how it is likely to change. *shrug* I flirted very actively with two boys that I met there. It was really funky for me. I have never been that active/busy of a hussy before…. dude. I made out with/was spanked by one of them and that was it. I uhhh got a bit more active with the other boy but it didn’t go that far. He had rules 🙂 I’m not sure how much I really wanted to do with him, so I was actually happy he had limits. I’ve heard from one of them so far… I’m not sure if I want to follow up on it. I can’t go to the next Black Sheets because I will be in Eureka teaching sm classes. I need to talk to the organizer about that more… hmmm

Sunday I had a date with Paul and we watched “Saved!” I liked it. Very amusing trite sort of movie. I recommend it for humor sake. We had a disappointing time at Mo’s b-day dinner. Then we went and picked up Katie. God DAMN is she hot. The play between the three of us is pretty fun. Although this wasn’t really play so much as just sex. 🙂 I spent all of Monday with Katie getting to know her better. We got familiar with one another’s history’s. She is so sweet. I really like her. I am going to enjoy spending more time with her in the future. I went to the Plough and then Death Guild. Yay dancing.

I flaked on my plans for after Death Guild because I was sooooo tired. My head hurt and I felt ready to cry. I just wasn’t up to a date. I am really sorry. I don’t like flaking. It is the second time I have cancelled plans with this person and soon he is going to decide that I am not worth the effort. Just wait and watch. *sigh* I am overscheduling myself and I’m not handling it well.

(side note- Oliver! is up to my favorite song. Yay!)

This afternoon I had lunch and a lovely chat with a gorgeous woman. She gave me an out for my relationship with Tom. I have to decide how I feel about that. Really trippy to think that I really am not trapped in any way. I am here because I want to be here. Do I want to be here?