I had something happen this weekend that blew my mind. I had anal sex. Ok, so given my level of perverse activity it probably shocks people that I haven’t done this before, but it has never worked. When I was pretty young I was sodomized in a very bad way by a very bad person. It resulted in lots of tearing and scar tissue. So my overall tendency to be very delicate “down there” seems to be even worse in my ass.
However, this time… it worked. He was patient and slow and gentle and slow and persistant and slow and …. yeah. Good stuff. He didn’t want to back off. He wouldn’t stop. I had enough wine with dinner that I somehow managed to keep myself from freaking out. I kept calm and collected and tried to not spaz. I felt the initial starting of pain and I asked him to slow down. He waited until my breath was normal again and then asked if I wanted him to keep going or stop. I wanted him to keep going. He kept at it and pushed into me. I handled it. It felt so good.
I was worried early on that I would get bored. Heh. Not only am I not even approaching bored, but he is introducing me to new activities. Guess I need to stop pre-judging people.
I sure like him.
Congratulations! What a huge step after such a horrendous event, even if it was a long time ago. I’m inspired.
Yay you! I’m so glad you had such a good experience. I’m a bit jealous!
Jealous?! Why?
’cause it’s something I’m curious about but I can’t get over certain aspects and haven’t actually done it. Just ’cause. Can’t I be jealous of YOU sometimes? 🙂
Well I suppose you can if you really want to. But it will confuse me.
Guess what I did last night……
Wow. Yay new frontiers….
Re: Guess what I did last night……
whoo hoo!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Re: Guess what I did last night……
*big stupid grin*
“When I was pretty young I was sodomized in a very bad way by a very bad person.”
I can sympathize. I wasn’t “pretty young” when it happened – I was in college – but the “in a very bad way” certainly fits. No foreplay, so I wasn’t relaxed and aroused. No lube. No tenderness. Not slow at ALL.
It made me not want to ‘go there’ for a very long time. Fortunately, a very *good* person came along later, and all that changed.
I’m glad you’ve found that sort of very good person to take you there and give *back* to you what was taken from you when you were young.
When you’ve experienced abuse, reclaiming what was taken from you is *VERY* important — and very empowering.
*BIG HUGS* to you!
I did not have horrid experiences, but my first anal partner was my top, and the anal sex was always a submissive act.
I always came. But it always hurt. It took *sooo* many years of subsequent patient partners for me to be able to just enjoy my ass. It helped a lot that I met folks who liked to play with the outside, too.
Have you read Dr. Morin’s book? (Anal Pleasure and Health) I recommend it.