I woke up this morning at 6:30. I went to bed at 10. That means I got more than 8 hours of good sleep. (Yay Vicodin!) I didn’t have to be up until 7:30/7:45ish. What did I do? Come on people… guess…. Did I roll over like a normal person and try to get an extra hour of sleep because I haven’t slept much in a few weeks? No! I jumped out of bed feeling plucky and well-rested and energetic. I started laundry. I finished cleaning up my bedroom. I cleaned the kitchen. I put the finishing touches on my bathroom. I did some paper work. My house is finally clean! I am so proud of me!!! These last few bits have been dragging on forever and I have been feeling really shitty about it. I can’t stand living in a mess. It makes me feel frazzled and discontent. Although, anyone who comes over to my house on any sort of regular basis laughs at me about my idea of living in a mess. I am a pretty serious neat-freak. For me a mess is cleaner than many people ever get their house. heh. Doesn’t matter. We all make our own standards.
Now, my house is really spic and span. I am dressed and ready to go for the day. My cat is fed and watered. Laundry is mid-process. I have another 20 minutes until I need to leave the house. Hey! Maybe I can send some of the emails I’ve been putting off!
*bounce*
*bounce*
It is amazing how everything in life can look better after getting some sleep. I’ve been really horribly depressed and just not functioning for a while. Today, I feel like my life is ok. So things are going to be weird and funky for a while. I’m ok with that. I can cope. I will survive and not only survive, but thrive. I will always be ok. I’m strong and capable and I am more loved than any person has a right to be. Thank you God.
I used to jump out of bed like that every morning. I want that back. I’m not sure if it’s because my lifestyle has changed or the amount and timing of daylight, or if it’s just because I’m older, but mornings used to be productive for me.
I’m glad you’re over your nonfunctioning period. I’ve taken similar steps in the last day or two… still a lot to sort out, and things won’t be peachy for a while, but I think I can make things move in the right direction fairly consistently now.
Thanks for your e-mail, and for adding some spice to my life. I will reply soon.
I’m strong and capable and I am more loved than any person has a right to be.
Actually, I’d say that most people have the right to be as loved as you are. It’s a rather fundamental right.
But that’s just semantic quibbling way too early in the morning.
Now you just need to remember this feeling in case it happens again.
Yay for a morning full of pep!
Go, you! I know you’ve needed some time surrounded by organization and cleanliness after your stint at the DH :-/
Really glad you got it, though!
Well you know how I feel about my sleep.. I’m down right territorial about it. I know how much of a difference it makes to my mood so there’s very little that I’m willing to trade it in for.
I used to leap out of bed every morning like that. Now has completely shifted my sleep cycle, and I only see 6:00 AM on days when I’m stressed or in pain.
go you! Glad to see that you were able to take some control of the space.
Some days I’m like that, and other days there’s a gravity well under the bed. This morning was a “slap the snooze button repeatedly and cuddle more with the cute girl and cute kitty” sort of morning. Which, despite being unproductive, is a nice sort of morning too.
I’m glad you’re OK, in any case. 🙂