I may be moving out within the next few weeks. I found a place in Fremont that I may take. It is small, just a room. But I won’t have housemates. I won’t have to worry about dealing with other people. No one will notice when I come and go. I would have one neighbor along one wall. It is going to be interesting.
Tom and I went through the toy chest last night. We talked about toys and collars. It was hard. We were both sad and we cried. It was draining as well. My toy bag now looks like a baby-perv toybag. It is kind of cute. He was very generous. We split up the collars. He kept the one for him and several that we bought for me. Ones that he was more interested in than I am. I kept the majority of the collars we bought for me. I wouldn’t be able to handle him passing them along to other girls. That would suck too much. I’m not sure if I will wear them with anyone else, but maybe. We both expressed a desire to see the other play and try to find someone to be happy with. It was freakin hard. I’m glad we did it though.
I’m going to miss him.
What’s the audience/context?
A class full of other budding teachers. I’m not going to “out” myself.
“What should I give my presentation on?”
Since it’s a class for budding teachers, talking about what effects moving around a lot had on you, educationally and socially, would probably be appropriate. Now, if I were attending your presentation, I think I’d like to hear your views on deliberate community. But that’s me.
“I may be moving out within the next few weeks. I found a place in Fremont that I may take. It is small, just a room. But I won’t have housemates.”
I think you’re doing the right thing in trying to move now, rather than waiting four more months. And this sounds like it could be a good place for you. Fremont’s a little strange … that’s where I lived when I first moved to the area. But you probably won’t be spending much time there, anyways.
“Tom and I went through the toy chest last night. We talked about toys and collars. It was hard.”
I know it had to be. But now you’ve gotten it done, and it’s one more thing you won’t have hanging over your head.
Remember, when it gets really, really hard, and you feel like it just hurts *too much*, you have people who love you.
I’d put a vote in for a room in a shared house. You’re such a social being, and I know you’re going to feel EXTRA alone when you move – do you really think you’ll be comfortable without housemates? I lived alone for a while. While the independance is nice, it can be VERY lonely. I don’t know that “no one noticing when you come and go” is a good thing…..
As far as your presentation – I voted for “moving around a lot” – in terms of audience value, I would think your perspectives on what it feels like to be the new kid could be really informative.
I didn’t keep the collars either when I broke up with Cara… I couldn’t imagine using them on anyone else. I do still have a copy of our contract in a box of memories somewhere though, transcribed onto felt with a calligraphy pen. *sigh*