That the motivation for my anger is unclear. Fine. I can clear that up.

I am disappointed and hurt that the scene isn’t happening after so many months of planning. But I am not angry because the person was not willing to go through with it.

I am angry because the scene was cancelled in a very disrespectful, immature, inconsiderate manner.

I don’t appreciate the reason touted for the scene being cancelled, but I don’t have the right to insist that people do something that they don’t want to do no matter the reason.

I am not angry at the people who were involved in planning the scene. At times I did not react well to their well intentioned questions and comments because I was not able to hear the intent with which they were trying to express them. They were willing to step up to a pretty fucking significant request and that is impressive. Can people please stop feeling like I am attacking them?

For the record: No. I did not remove you from the filter. I made all the entries private. I feel like shit about the dialogue and I want it to stop. The only way to do that is to not discuss it anymore in any public place.