I slipped

the water fills the tub

steralize the tool

pick spots that can be hidden–someone will be looking

stay shallow, don’t give in to the impulse to push harder and harder. just the surface. just the barest release

better and worse. empty and aching and guilty instead of swirling agony.

i failed.

9 thoughts on “I slipped

  1. anima_fauxsis

    It’s not a failure.
    It’s just a coping mechanism – like I’ve said, there are better and worse ones, but they all have a function. Don’t beat yourself up over it. But please call one of us, ok?

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  2. kerigirl

    You didn’t fail, sweetie. Old behaviors, old ways of coping, take time and patience to break. It doesn’t happen overnight. I’ve learned from experience that being hard on yourself doesn’t make things better. Love and compassion for yourself is what helps you through the relapses. I’ve found that even when I use an old coping skill (ie, binging and purging), I can still use an NEW coping skill by giving myself the love, understanding, and tenderness I am STILL heading in a healthier direction. Hang in there.

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    1. boxofchaos

      “I’ve found that even when I use an old coping skill (ie, binging and purging), I can still use an NEW coping skill by giving myself the love, understanding, and tenderness I am STILL heading in a healthier direction”

      Such good advice, that we can ALL use in our lives.

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