I woke up this morning and checked my email and promptly became a ranting, raving bitch. Well, I finally got my teaching assignment. It is fourty fucking miles from my house. I ranted and was pissy and nasty for a while. Puppy and I went through a debate about whether I should move to SJ and he should move back up to Berkeley basically for the year. This kind of snapped me out of my nastiness. We decided that would suck more than driving and we want to continue living together. I uhhh don’t get to be all nasty about the 9,000 or so miles I am going to put on my car in the next 5 months… I told him that if he thinks he might want to break up with me he better do it now before I go through that or he is going to end up in the hospital because I will beat him so badly he won’t wake up for a week.
Last night I was thanked for driving a friend around on errands yesterday. I literally stopped and blinked. It wouldn’t have occurred to me not to do it. What an interesting thought. I wonder how other people’s brains work. (The thank you was very sweet in any case.)
Still no word on financial aid. However, I think that one is going to work itself out eventually and be ok. I am going to take both loans and let one of them sit in my savings account due to my paranoia about my car dying in the next year. Puppy is much more worried about money than I am. I’m actually kind of worried about his stress level above my own. Money doesn’t get to me the way it seems to get to him.
The MA class this semester turns out to be specifically themes in Californian literature as oppossed to American literature overall. Hrm. Uhm, ok. This class is going to be rather difficult and I am always paranoid when I have one term paper that is 40% of my grade. Can we say, “Don’t fuck up.” It’ll be ok though. I am going to get through this with flying colors, damnit. I want to get an A in this class. Just because I want to have another one on my transcript. 🙂
I think my house is going to be messy for the next few months and I could not care less! 🙂 I am actually all of a sudden *so* grateful that I have already made the decision to not do Dickens. The commute and long hours there on top of my already driving sooooo much and working like crazy would be too much. But now I am really happy that I don’t feel like I am making the decision out of last-minute duress. I really like having things be settled already.
I got another good massage last night. Two in two weeks! My life doesn’t suck. 🙂
I have decided that despite the fact that today did not start off on a great foot, I am going to be in a good mood. I have sang the Bumblebee song to myself three times already and I’m still giggling. Now, I am going to make cookies! I’m going to make sooooo many cookies today. I need to have cookies for sarahh and brian1789 so that they can feel the love as they are on their way to Spain. It isn’t easy going far away from your loved ones for a long time. And cause I’m going to make lots of cookies for them I want to bring some to karenbynight and princeofwands too cause they have been including me in their lives more and more and they make me feel very good about myself. Besides, maybe if I bribe them with good enough cookies they will delay moving away from me by another week or so. *sniff* And and and and… the more I think about making cookies, the more people I think need some cookies. I think the cookie fairy needs to visit a large number of households in the next few days… This means I need to get off my ass!
Oof, driving that far is going to suck. Particularly with traffic along 880 being what it is.
Where in SJ is the school?
South. Like, off of 85 on Blossom Hill.
Youch, that is really far south. On the other hand, our place is on the way, so perhaps you can take breaks from the traffic with us occasionally.
That sounds like a wonderful plan.
Wow! I pass that exit on my way to work. Also a budddy of mine teaches at a school off Cottle. Small world (or Bay Area…).
Last night I was thanked for driving a friend around on errands yesterday. I literally stopped and blinked. It wouldn’t have occurred to me not to do it. What an interesting thought. I wonder how other people’s brains work. (The thank you was very sweet in any case.)
It probably wouldn’t have occurred to your friend not to thank you for doing the driving. And they’d be astounded that other people wouldn’t think of thanking you for that – even if it’s something you’d do as automatically as a heartbeat.
Well, but it was a different person. Not the friend. Another friend. I know that the person I drove around would thank me, she rocks like that. But that other people would be surprised and grateful was interesting.
Sometimes I think I should start people for doing good things in general, even if I’m not the recipient. Hrm…
Anyway, my point was that automatic behaviours are different for different people. Like it wouldn’t occur to me not to respond to this entry… 🙂
You are so funny.
Eh, I’m commuting about 50 miles right now – it sucks, but it’s survivable. Though I’m going to end up putting way too much of my paycheck into my car, both gas and upkeep.
On the bright side – I’m working, and my first paycheck should get to me next Wednesday.:) (Downside: car tune-up time and dental bills will get rid of said paycheck, but it’s better than draining savings.)
Last night I was thanked for driving a friend around on errands yesterday. I literally stopped and blinked. It wouldn’t have occurred to me not to do it. What an interesting thought. I wonder how other people’s brains work. (The thank you was very sweet in any case.)
When I was a kid my mom used to thank me for doing my chores. And I would be like “but, mom, you MADE me do that. Why are you thanking me?” and she explained that just because it was something that was required of me didn’t make her not grateful to have the help. A thankyou doesn’t necessarily imply the behavior went above and beyond expected behavior… just that the person is grateful for having it done. I try to remember that and always thank people at work for things they help me out with… just because it’s their job and they’re already drawing a paycheck as compensation for doing it doesn’t mean a little extra thanks hurts.
cookies
You make gooooooood cookies. Yummmmmmmy cookies. I remember. I remember cookies good. If you have any left over, please let me know; I’m _sure_ I’d find _some_ way to help you deal with such a situation.
And I read above that you got your teaching assignment changed to Milpitas. That is waaaaay better. I used to work at 85 and Blossom Hill, and it was a sucky commute for me from here; from where you are would suck waaaaaay worse. Milpitas is mucho better. Yes.