Tomorrow my goals are:
Make the guest room neat. It doesn’t really matter that it is a mess, but I hate it and want the mess to go away.
Lug all of the bags out of the gun room down to the garage.
Start sorting out books that I will not need in the next year and pack them.
Finish grading the papers for the seniors and get mygradebook up to date for the juniors. Which means checking their WW, reading quiz, and vocabulary tests. I should put in their some of their upcoming points.
Put together lecture on suffering.
Stuff to not think about:
Why am I staying in this relationship?
Why is he completely unwilling to defend me when his family says rude/mean/hurtful things about me?
Where am I going to spend Thanksgiving?
Where am I going to spend Christmas?
Where will I be living in a year?
Why do I pick men who are unwilling to pay attention to me?
SO we’re not going to disneyland?
You are the one bitching at me to hurry up and move already. I think that is my first real opportunity.
oh, ok
“Why am I staying in this relationship?”
You are maybe unwilling to throw away all the work you’ve done and there’s also that Love thing to consider?
“Why is he completely unwilling to defend me when his family says rude/mean/hurtful things about me?”
Programming. His issues. His issues that he needs to work on. Priorities… If my family says anything negative about someone I am dating, I defend them and then tell them to drop it on fear of angering me. But, then I am the head of my family and have been, so it’s a very different dynamic. In the future you may want to look into getting him to at least make them stop saying the nasty things if he won’t actively fight for you.
“Where am I going to spend Thanksgiving?”
You are welcome here with me and my boys.
“Where am I going to spend Christmas?”
You will be welcome here. We are doing another overnight christmas party.
“Where will I be living in a year?”
Hopefully in one place for that entire year. I’m just sayin…
“Why do I pick men who are unwilling to pay attention to me?”
Self-esteem and self worth issues? Patterns of relationships that tell people you like men who are fundamentally unable to show you the attention you want? Puppy was a very busy boy when you met him. Consider that in the future.