My doctor says that I am remarkably, almost freakishly healthy. Everything is as optimal as can possibly be hoped for. She thinks I should go see a gastro-intestinal specialist and I don’t have insurance for that until January, I think most of the way through January. Although Jamba Juice has helped remarkably and I think I may be able to get my calorie count to a reasonable level with a shot of that every day. Yes, I should buy the fruit and make it at home. I’m too apathetic and I just won’t get around to eating at all that way.
It is strange how my body and my emotions are just completely fucked over and upset and yet I’m doing really well at teaching. I am somehow managing to suck it up.
Feel free to yell at Stig for me next time you bump into him
I still don’t get this.
Ginger.
You know I’m going to persist in this, don’t you?
I find that I need some aspects of my life to be stable and reliable, especially if other aspects are in chaos or major flux. The more flux elsewhere, the more stable and reliable I need the stable bits to be. The trick for me, then, is to allow each area of my life to flux in turn rather than clinging to the same old stability in some particular area forever.