It is amazing how we don’t realize the energy we are putting off into the world sometimes. Today I had to deal with a student (I’m subbing–no comments about the word) who is one of the most hostile people I have had the misfortune to encounter in a very long time. She is just a total nasty bitch. Being in the room with her makes me feel angry and aggressive. I don’t like the feeling at all. It was quite a stretch for me to go back to my happy-cheerful attitude with the next period but I’m doing ok.
I don’t understand the point of sending that energy out into the universe. For all that people tell me that teenagers are just awful and why do I want to work with them–it is freakin unusual to see that kind of hostility. Most of the kids are bright and positive and willing to participate. I really love my job. Once in a while, I don’t love a kid though and that is really hard.
🙁
*For a child to be in that state…something horrible must have happened to her…*
While you must remain in control and on top of things…*find a silent hug for her somewhere…’cause someone did wrong by her…and you get to do right…*
damn those words…wrong and right…*…I just don’t know which others to use right now…*
I understand and agree with what you have to say. The problem is, even though I desperately want to have compassion for the fact that someone somewhere in the universe has done her some pretty serious harm, I also can’t tolerate that kind of nastiness from a student. I’m kind of between a rock and a hard place.
She will have to serve her detention but I’ll see if maybe when it is assigned I can meet her with something nice and see if I can get her to feel more positive about having to serve it.
*cross fingers*
*Good Teacher!
As you fully well understand, it is a defense mechanism. If you make it unpleasant enough for people to deal with you, they will stop trying. And while if you make the effort you may get through, it would take years of therapy and self-examination to get her to stop doing it. As well as removing her from her current environment, most likely, as that behavior is indicative of a traumatic or abusive episode or episodes.