Cause I’m one of those people who work best if I am held accountable. 🙂
Today I would like to:
pick up all the clutter around my apartment.
do all of the homework due this week.
Take a bath.
That is probably all I have time to do in the next 4 hours. And I’m hoping I get through it all. *cross fingers*
This week:
Scrub the bathroom from ceiling (if you work down the drips matter less).
Clean my kitchen from top to bottom.
Buy an ink cartridge so that I can freakin print at home.
Go through fabric stuff and figure out what I need to buy in order to get started on faire stuff. I need: two skirts, bloomers, and a bodice. I can do it. Damnit. I WILL learn how to sew.
Figure out all the stuff I am going to do in the grammar unit for the kiddos. I would like to have that finalized before I go back to school.
Cook something interesting just to prove that I can.
Me time. 🙂
Create multiple music playlists for different moods so I don’t have to sit here thinking about it so often.
Read through a novel and take notes for the comp exams.
Read at least one psych book on sexual assault recovery and start figuring out a syllabus for the class I want to teach.
Figure out how to write about the stuff on my mind about being perceived as a slut.
I think that is all I know about right now. 🙂
“Figure out how to write about the stuff on my mind about being perceived as a slut.”
well then… quite a list, but this is the cherry. When you figure it out, please clue me in. I’m having quite an interesting trip figuring out how to relate to this slut persona of mine, while perfectly content to be monogamous, with someone who is flabbergasted at my slut self sometimes.(not in a bad way, just in a, “wow, we’ve had really different experiences” kind of way).
I am me, there’s no escaping it. Slut too, but I am losing my grasp on how to articulate why it’s important to me to hold on to a label that so many perceive as a negative thing. Especially when they know my darkest experiences…and they care, and want to lift me up and out of feeling bad about myself.
Slut can be bad, but really, slut can be very good too. I want people who know me and love me to smile when they think, “slut”. And I want to hold on to that, even if they only see me with one person.
I don’t know. Who know I would be worrying about a one-partner gig. Who knows what I will be worrying about in six months and if this whole thing is an excersize in self reflection.
In any case, you can do all of these things on your list.
Be nice to yourself while you work your way down… and tell us what yumminess you cook up.
😉 see you soon!
*Funny how boxofchaos and I focus on the same line…*
I always like to tell people that I have a healthy outlook on sex, not a desperate one…*
You’re a healthy slut…*not a desperate one…*