I’m seriously overtired and that makes me more inclined to be sad. I am tired because I stayed up late helping Noah pack and generally clinging to him like a lichen. Before I even dropped him off I was already aching with missing him. This is going to be a very long six days. I am such a wuss. This is only going to be six days. That is like 1/3 of how long I was in New York. But things are different now. I wasn’t used to living with him then. I wasn’t used to seeing him first thing every morning and every night. I was still adjusting to the endless hours of processing. I can comfortably say that I am fine with them now. Ok, I still hit limits sometimes… but not as often. The hard moments are getting easier and easier. And… I just miss him.
I told him that I don’t know if I will be able to sleep in our bed cause it is really big and scary and empty. He asked me to try so that I stop thinking of the other bed as ‘mine’ and the big bed as ‘his.’ I’ll try. I forsee crying tonight.
The weird thing? The biggest consolation I have is that he is going to be sleeping with the Super Princess while he is gone. It feels like he is joining me in a tradition. I like that.
Feel free to call me up with you want to chat. I’ll be in and out (laundry) but mostly in.
Might I recommend cuddling with lots of pillow or stuffed animals? It seems to help when the bed is too big. *SMOOCH*
The girl is *so* on top of the “stuffed animals” thing 🙂
I kinda knew that. It would be weird if she wasn’t.
I sleep with a teddy bear every night. I’m feeling tempted to dump *all* of my stuffed animals on the bed tonight though because I am not looking forward to another night without sleep.
That’s what I’m recommending. Fill that bed up so you feel nice and cuddled.
awww
::hugs::
the pillow idea works well, I find.
Well, you know Ill be keeping in contact when I can. And Ill be thinking it much more often yet.
And cursing the lack of apostrophes. It looks like that may just be a problem on Japanese keyboards. Many things are in funny places, but there seem to be no apostrophes, just double-quotes and two different flavors of back-ticks.
And Kanji. Lots of Kanji. At least this keyboard doesnt seem to lapse constantly and randomly into it 🙂
Miss you, wonderful girl.
Miss you more
I am *so* fighting the urge to say “nuh-uh”!
😛