I need to tell Shanna no when she asks to watch birth videos. Every so often I kind of freak out and sob because I feel so much grief over the fact that I will never have a son. Every birth video I see where they have a son I sob and feel so envious I can barely see straight. In no way shape or form do I wish either of my girls away. I’m actually enjoying having a girl a little bit more this time because I feel less self-imposed-inhibition about enjoying the more ‘girly’ clothes.
But I have dreamed of my son for so long. It hurts so much that I will never get to see what that person would be like.
Me too
I completely and utterly understand. I am so envious of my friends who have mixed gender children. I cry a little inside. We will not be having any more children. And this makes me cry because I will never see my little girl. I don’t wish my boys were not mine I just wish that we also had a daughter. (I’m crying writing this)
my heartsore sympathies
Grief is hard.
I’m sorry you’re hurting.
My neighbor once told me he felt his life was incomplete because he never had a son.
just *yesterday* I was talking to a woman with four boys and had “tried one last time for a girl.” she’s now pregnant with twins. boys.
she laughed a little and then said, wistfully, “i hope i can talk my husband into trying one last, one last time.”
obviously very strong feelings.