I’m doing the high intensity version of parenting.  I am on duty as an active parent for at least 22 hours a day, 7 days a week.  By which I mean, I have to accept the fact that any and every single thing in my life may have to be stopped or interrupted if one of my children need something from me.  And they need a lot from me.  And there are two of them.  Woof.  In the average week we socialize with a maximum of five people and that’s often two sets of mother/child dyads seen separately or adults who come over at dinner time to mostly socialize after the kids are asleep.  My kids are not now nor have they ever been in any kind of daycare or school.  My primary use of babysitting is so I can go to therapy.

This is the high intensity version of parenting.  And I’ll tell you honestly that I question it.  There is a lot I love madly about my life but there is a lot that I wonder if I am really making the right choices.  I’m not sure there is a way to know.  You cast the dice and take your chances, right?