Right now I am exploding. I am doing so all over the internet. I have now sent extensive messages to everyone I know in my extended biological family telling them I was horribly molested and raped for 10 years and none of them did anything to help me. I have mixed feelings about this.
mixed feelings . . . yeah. i have 100% awesome feelings about the fact that you are talking. that is amazing. you are, like, a fucking demon-slaying warrior.
my more iffy feelings are about people responding to your emails. are you going to read them, or just delete and move on? i am having a hard time imagining any value in you reading their responses. i guess i’m feeling a little protective. i don’t want people to hurt you any more. i love you.
“Demon-slaying warrior.” I don’t know that I’ve ever heard a better phrase for this.
When you’re full-body soaked in demon ichor, trying hard to keep holding the sword and not fall over, it turns out you feel like shit.
You’re doing the right thing anyway. Keep at it.
And, y’know, we’ll hand you towels to wipe off and feed and hydrate you to help you keep moving.
But yes – great phrase, great visual… and entirely the right thing.
My friend Marrus did a painting a while ago that reminds me of a ‘demon-slaying warrior’ like Krissy. (While I can’t seem to link to it directly, if you want to see it, go to:
http://marrusart.com/
and click on the paintings before 2000, click on thumbnail in the upper left corner for the painting called ‘Soul Owning’.)
Wow. That’s pretty fantastic. (And makes me want to wear my red patent leather docs more.)
🙂 And good point about the red patent leather docs. I don’t wear mine nearly enough.
This.
I hope that good things come from this, and that you don’t have to deal with a lot more shit to get it. I admire you for telling them the truth. I’m holding you in my thoughts.
Dude, I understand the mixed feelings.
Mine aren’t mixed, you are incredible and I’m honored your my friend. Keep kicking ass.
This is totally the expression I’ve been trying to come up with for you lately, too!!
Refusing to be silent about rape and molestation is indeed a warrior’s choice. Especially in this culture.
I agree with what Noah says, and add Winston Churchill’s advice: “When you’re going through Hell? Keep going.”
Who knows what’s on the other side, but it’s got to be better than Hell.
we don’t see each other very often, but… good for you. I think this will be good for you and maybe even for others, if they can hear you.
Just saw this… mixed feelings I can imagine. But FWIW I’ll chime in and say that I think it is great, it is refusing to do their dirty closeting work for them anymore. Go you…