I went in for a CT scan yesterday of my abdominal pain. Apparently it shows nothing out of the ordinary. Ok, I don’t have hernias. Excellent. So it just hurts. This means I can stop visiting doctors because all they will tell me to do is go see a psychiatrist so I can be put on more pills that will make my life hell.
I *have* tried psych meds. They make my life a living hell. I don’t sleep for weeks. I am so afraid that I cannot come out of my closet. I am so tired that I cannot follow conversations let alone learn anything or work. I … I went through med rounds already. More than once. Really I think I’ve gone through rounds of trying medications three or four times by now. It’s not like my problems are new.
I feel incredibly sad. Ok, it just hurts. I guess it is not cancer and it isn’t a hernia. Oh well. That’s just how life goes sometimes.
They ruled out some of the big scary possibilities.
Is your next stop OB/GYN?
My next step is supposed to be another visit with my primary care. I suppose after that I will see what he says. I am interested in pursuing it both through ob/gyn channels and possible food allergy types of things. I have no idea if it could be related but I want to ask.
I know it’s horrible to have to keep stepping forward and asking for tests and care (I read the post today about the broken arm)- I’m glad you’re doing it anyway. *hug*