This is predictable and suboptimal. My neck is really stiff and sore and I feel really dizzy and nauseous. I don’t know if I will actually vomit or not. So far I have stayed pretty still hoping to avoid it.

But we have to get dressed. Folks will be doing work. I did not do all of my tasks for yesterday and I don’t know that I will finish them today. I hit a wall.

Sometimes I think my body hurts as much as it does just because this is the only way I notice that I have one other than feeling impatient with my limitations.

I had brief hopes of a weekend without kids. Again not so much. My kids sure require a lot of energy from me. I’m tired. It’ll be fine. They can play. If I get desperate I am a luxurious rich person and we have an iPad.

Every day I stop and feel gratitude for all of the people who put time and energy and effort into creating the technology I use. The computers, phones, stoves, washing machines, and cars. I have so much ease in my life because of the labor of thousands of people.

Even though I am afraid that I’m being short tempered and snippy (my kids nod that I’m being snippy) I feel really lucky right now. (I apologize for snapping pretty frequently and I try again. I just suck at voice control right now.)

It will be ok.

It will all be ok.