I got news today I didn’t really want to hear. That’s my problem and not the problem of the bearer.

In January I am scheduling *one* home school outing I have to drive to per week. I have therapy twice during the month and I’ll have to drive to that. I’ve scheduled 11 hours of scattered babysitting help from the home schooled kid a few doors down. I added swim classes again. In the next week I need to start going to observe martial arts studios. I scheduled the doctor appointment for the 15th at 8:30 in the morning.

After all that I need to just stay home and not have any projects. My project is calming down. I have no more spoons and no one is going to show up to rescue me. Life is like that.

We will read books and play in the yards. We will walk the neighbor’s dog. We will have no more than four hours in a given day where I have to be “on” and dealing with anything. One of those days of the week “on” will be walking to the farmers market.

Slower pace. Do less. Be more boring.

Sometimes I think it is very good for me to be reminded that I should only depend on myself.