This coming weekend we are having family pictures taken. I’m going to have a specific picture taken of Calli to match a picture taken of me when I was three. It’s the same dress. The thing is, that picture of me was taken to match a picture of my mother in the same dress. Her grandmother made the dress for her.

I keep going back and forth in my mind about whether it would be cruel or kind to send a copy to my mother. I don’t know if it right or not. But Calli is her blood and Calli looks like her and me.

I don’t want to hurt my mother any more than I already have.