My arms are being fussy. And lots is going on. I am having lots of big feelings. Clearly being on medication is not enough to make that problem go away. Stupid shit. I’m trying to not be an asshole.
The speaking event we went to tonight was pretty fun. I think I’ll be talking for them next year. Diversity. Poverty. “Upward mobility”. Adverse childhood experiences. Brain development. Raw potential. Community influence. Sure. Talking to them would be fun. If you live else where check their dates for your city.
Noah and I were treated like B list celebrities. (In a sweet way. We didn’t expect to be recognized.) People knew who we were before we arrived and then spent a lot of time telling us how fantastic we are. I walked out with a puffed chest. Hilarious.
I got to drive a stick shift. That was an adventure.
How to protect oneself from the potential fallout from decisions one can’t control? It’s a mystery.
I come back over and over to this idea: my primary job is educating my children. My primary job is educating my children. My primary job is educating my children.
All the rest is optional. It should get jettisoned in favor of proper focus on my primary job.
No, I don’t think that all mothers should spend all of their time obsessively with their kids whether they like it or not. I have never said they should. (Well you could cut’n’paste and shit and make it look like I did but I didn’t.)
I want to home school my kids. If they want me to do so as well, of course. So far my kids express zero desire to be away from me all day. They get pretty pissy when I’m away from them for a while. This too shall pass.
My primary job is not cooking, cleaning, shopping, laundry, writing, reading, or gardening. All of those things must be placed in their proper order.
I don’t want to outsource the work of my life. I do not aspire to dropping off dirty laundry and picking up clean clothes. I’m not sure I aspire to a house cleaner. My gardner (whom we keep around to trim the front hedge because otherwise the city gets mad at me and I don’t wanna do it) is always anxious because I don’t want him to do much but I give him periodic raises and he seems to think he is ripping me off. It’s cool. Stop butchering the god damn blue potato vine. I was shaping that fucker.
Oh well.