I’m a pretty standard kid of my generation in many ways. If you want me to do something: you need to give me my fucking cookie as a reward or things won’t go so well. I need rewards. Gold stars. Stickers. Approval. Validation.
I need it to confirm that I’m doing the right thing. Or I don’t know. And I spend a lot of time freaking out.
Yesterday and today have been the kind of days where I’m getting validation in my choice to do what I’m doing with my life. Not because everyone should be like me. Not because I’m perfect. Not because I am better than a single other person because I’m doing what I’m doing.
That’s not it.
We went to see doctors for the kids. I think it is funny how doctors are such a negative force for me personally and they have been this really positive force for my kids. Irony.
We were told to try Claritin for three days and if it doesn’t clear up our symptoms then we do just keep getting colds that drag on for months–bummer. Ok dude.
I reported the eye tic. He shrugged. They are very normal and common. No big deal.
I told him about how sad Calli gets sometimes. I told him that I don’t tell him this because I think she is depressed at this point but given that she has protracted (for her) periods of slight withdrawal I thought I should come in and fill him in on some family medical background. I told him it will be really important over the years for him to build a specific relationship with my kids to watch them for areas that I am not catching.
We talked about our growing library of books on bodies, feelings, coping with life circumstances (of a pretty freakishly broad array of life circumstances my kids have never and will never experience). He said that he thinks my kids are very lucky to have a parent who wants to teach these things specifically.
We talked about how my kids will have to be watched for mental illness issues. They have stuff from both sides. Teaching them essentially therapeutic skills from their earliest development is pretty much the ideal environment for kids like mine. Genetics are a really interesting thing. Trauma changes your kids DNA. Nature and nurture weave together to create amazing things.
The optometrist was a really good sport about testing Shanna’s eyes and getting her to inadvertently prove that she could read the letters just fine with no help. He was tactful and awesome. At the end he told her that she was right–clearly she needs glasses but unfortunately her prescription is so heavy that she can’t wear the glasses yet. She needs to be about twelve before her neck will be strong enough to carry all that weight. Until then she should eat vegetables and do the eye exercises I (her mom) assign so she can hopefully lighten the prescription a little so it doesn’t hurt too badly. Awesome dude.
Then there are all the random people who talk to us when we are out.
The delighted older woman at Kaiser who watched us play in the rain. She looked to be in her seventies or eighties. She was struggling along with a cane. She stopped to smile and say, “I always loved to play in the rain but my mother wouldn’t let me. I’m so glad you let them play.”
Later in a store a Middle Eastern man (I mention this solely because he is in a demographic that very rarely talks to me randomly in public) commented on my parenting. He watched me start to ignore Shanna then realize I was doing it, apologize, then backtrack to acknowledge what she was trying to show me.
I had manners. Like you do.
After that I was just standing around waiting for them to finish what they were doing and he told me that yesterday was bring your child to work day. He has three daughters. The youngest is seven and he brought her. He said her behavior was no where near as appropriate as my daughters and “How old are they?” !!!!!!
He said a few more things but in the end he told me that watching me with my kids makes him think that maybe the problem in his family is that he isn’t paying enough attention to his kids. He doesn’t think he has ever apologized for ignoring his kids and he thinks he should start. He thanked me and went on his way.
I got my cookie.
Beautiful
Very nice 🙂
See? You’re awesome. 🙂
It was certainly a “go Krissy!” kind of day. 🙂