I feel like I am doing better physically. The pinched nerve still hurts but not like it did. Emotionally I am all over the place. I feel both happy and sad. As usual I’m missing my mom so much it hurts. I wonder if this will ever go away, this feeling of aching for her. I’m up to more than 30 years of it so I don’t hold a lot of hope at this point.

Luckily my children continue to inspire me and with every passing year Noah becomes more of a reason to stay alive all by himself. I truly could not have imagined a love this nice.