I don’t feel like things are hopeful. I feel like the next few years will be a nightmare of hyper vigilance trying to not be an unwitting part of a giant Milgram experiment.
Then there is my personal life. I still don’t know but I’m scared of that too. I’m scared because I opened Pandora’s box.
I’m fantastically angry about some things. I’m angry about being told that other people “can’t help” what they are doing and that means I have to accept things they do. How come I always get told that I have to change but others can’t help how they are? Am I magic?
I’m not saying I shouldn’t have to change anything. I’m just feeling annoyed about some dynamics.
I truly wish I had more ability to just change how I’m told. I wish I were less impulsive. I feel sad.