I can’t hear feedback as positive today. Or yesterday. Everything sounds in my brain like confirmation of what a complete piece of shit I am. I will never be able to solve any of these problems because I am stupid and worthless. I was born worthless I will die worthless. Why am I burning so much energy to try?

I am so tired. I feel so sad. I feel like I will never ever deserve to feel better than this because I am so pathetic.

And I feel like my inability to hear anything as positive is part of why I am so bad and I deserve to suffer.