So I told the big kids I needed to not do much for a day and they needed to play with their sister all day long. They did! It was great! I was paged when I was needed and I cooked some vegetables for supper because otherwise we wouldn’t have had any all day (cauliflower, broccoli, and Brussels sprout roasted). I added goat cheese to mine. Mmmmmm

I sat in bed and played travel agent. So many flights and hotels and AirBnBs and travel are booked up through January 3rd. Then I’m staring off the edge of a cliff. I partially did this because a lot of countries are pissy about you entering without an exit date. So I don’t have to feel anxious about people glaring at me for “not going home” at the end. I was grilled like fuck coming into the UK. “When are you leaving? Why are you staying so long? Do you even have a job?”

I am not here for the dole, yo.

I spent $13,000 yesterday. But, my rent is paid up through January.

I feel like this is part of why I am feeling phobic about looking at Mint lately. How do I know how in budget I am when I am paying for stuff so far in advance?!

By the end of this calendar year I may have 300,000 frequent flier points. Not bad. If I add in the points my family is earning, definitely.

That’s going to pay for a lot of trips in 2020.

I miss Noah. Kid touch isn’t the same. I went and counted. Noah will be separated from us for 48 days this year. That’s a lot. We will cope, obviously, but it’s a lot.

Today we are going to meet Jenny and kids at a park. It will be fun. 🙂 We will get rained on in the lovely Scottish weather. Ha. Luckily we all have jackets to spare now.

I am feeling so blessed by all the food in my house right now. Japan and Hawaii were emotionally hard on me because I couldn’t stock up. But we keep talking about how much we already miss Japan. No one misses Hawaii. It’s not our paradise.

We only went to Hawaii because we wanted to see people. Who were then shitty and selfish. Oh well. That’s life.

My kids are having an interesting time watching what happens when you pull taut the threads of friendship. They see who is reaching back still despite the distance. They see that there are definitely *friends* in the world for them. They wish they had more, and local friends, of course… but they are feeling better about themselves just lately. They also struggled in the bay with not being able to tell who was really their friend and who was willing to come over and let us pay for entertainment.

We do have people who care about us very deeply. It’s nice. We continue to reach back. And our door will always be open to folks who want a spot on their own wanderings. We love you very much. California just wasn’t working anymore.

It’s not your fault and it isn’t my fault either.

I worry a lot about the future. There is no peace anywhere. There is no ease anywhere. We are heading for a cataclysmic event on a global scale.

Hold on to your tits.

Why do we have children when we are just damning them to a planet on the brink of collapse. Well, hope.

We have breakfasted (goodness it was good), had a morning snack, bathed, dressed, brushed hair, watched some Anne with an E, and now… blessed rest. Today will be easy.