It is hard knowing that I absolutely deserve every person who has stopped wanting to know me. I am not easy to know. I support people moving away from sources of toxin in their own lives. If I am toxic to you then you probably shouldn’t know me. I agree.

With every passing year I feel more like I am just not good for people. This feeling makes me hate myself a lot for wanting connection so much. I feel about as evil as HIV+ people who have nonconsensual bareback sex. It’s just not cool to put toxin like this into the air.