I think a lot about the difference between feeling lonely and being alone. I’m just about never alone anymore but it doesn’t change the fact that I feel lonely. I feel like the loneliness is connected to the feeling of “wrongness” that I don’t know how to quit having.

It is weird to me that I am both an incredibly created creature and one who is given credit for how I’ve done so much on my own. I have done a lot while alone… but I didn’t do it all for myself if that makes sense? There is a difference between work that is done on ones own without help from a community and work that is done alone while benefiting from community.