ah. The problem is that I seemed too excited when I was dating last year. That invalidates everything I’ve ever done with Noah. Because I tried to balance painful sex that I had no choice about with SOMETHING that I had a choice about there is no return.

I’ve wrecked his life and he should leave me. Because there is no coming back. But he won’t leave me because his mom is an evil harpy that I can’t compete with so my l