Recently I had something happen which has lead me to feel very on edge and pissy and angry. I’m not handling it well. I am seething with rage over small and stupid things. I can’t hear anything without feeling like my nose is being rubbed in it (whatever the it is of that second). This is certainly a feeling I have had before, but it has been a while. This angry makes it hard to do anything at all. I’m pretty nervous about kids getting here in less than 20 minutes. I have to completely stuff this. I have to be cheerful and friendly and helpful and I want to curl up in a ball and cry.

The only way I know to get through this is to hold my breath and just wait for it to be over, but that is a lot harder when there is a lot I have to do. I am really angry with myself for reacting this way on top of having trouble with my emotions so it is just one big awful cluster fuck. Today I don’t like me, or much of anyone else. Please God, let today go quickly. This is really hurting.