Balance

For all the difficulty involved in pregnancy there is so much good in it as well. I am talking to the Lizard more and more because now the child can hear me. We are having some good, though one-sided, conversations. I’m talking to the baby about my hopes and dreams for myself, and for him/her. I am telling the child about some of the pitfalls involved in dealing with me and with Noah. I’m trying to give the baby a head start on dealing with such a prickly mom.

I love looking down at my stomach and noticing the changes in my body and how they portend bringing life into the world. It’s interesting how I don’t exactly regard this as a “miracle” because it is a biological process yet it is still amazing. I get to do something that transforms a tiny piece of me, and a tiny piece of Noah, into an entirely different person. Noah has said many times that he wants to meet someone who is a piece of me and a piece of him. Thinking about that makes me smile, even when I hurt.

5 thoughts on “Balance

  1. tsgeisel

    It’s interesting how I don’t exactly regard this as a “miracle” because it is a biological process yet it is still amazing.

    When I was looking through the “don’t rub my belly” shirts, I also saw one that said: “My Super Power: I create human life.” , which I think is a more amusing way of looking at it.

    You’re not a miracle worker (except that you’re a teacher, which sometimes counts) – you’re a super hero. Which, I suppose, makes Noah your sidekick, and is a premise for some really interesting slash…

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  2. rbus

    one of the most amazing things i remember when my kids were newborn was how their faces held little whispers of all the family i had ever known.

    i saw everyone. people i loved. people i didn’t like at all. people alive. people long dead that i thought i’d never have a chance to see again.

    it was startling visual reminder that babies are an extension of the entire family, generations of them.

    it didn’t last long. probably less than a week. but it was so rewarding.

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