I appear to have zero interest in Halloween this year. We aren’t doing anything. I think we will probably get some candy and hand it out but I don’t plan to dress up. I have no plans for dressing up the kidlet either. I just don’t care. Meh.
Thanksgiving isn’t feeling particularly interesting either. Just… meh.
But I’m excited about Christmas. I’m thrilled about being able to get Shanna cool toys. I’m kind of weird about buying toys ‘just because’ throughout the year. So this feels like my excuse to get her stuff, which I want to do anyway. I’m kind of weird.
I have invited my bio-family to come over for Christmas dinner but I’m not sure they will do it. I have one whole ‘wing’ of the family who doesn’t like me much and I think they would just skip a family Christmas event rather than come here. If they are going to say no then I am not going to host at all because I would feel bad about keeping them from seeing everyone else. It sucks being a pariah.
So yeah. I kind of wish I had a chosen family thing going these days but that isn’t working out. So maybe Noah and Shanna and I will just stay home by ourselves. That way I don’t have to worry about people hating me or flaking at the last minute.
It’s going to be an unusual Christmas here too. For the last twenty years or so, the Dudes have always spent Christmas morning at their dad’s in Sacramento, and then come to my place for Christmas afternoon. This year that’s pretty close to impossible. It may be that I won’t have them here at all for Christmas, and instead they’ll come up for my 55th birthday a month and a half later. I don’t know what we’ll do if that happens — we’re thinking about maybe road-tripping up into Washington to spend the day with E’s family, which he hasn’t gotten to do in several decades. Or maybe we’ll just stay home, watch movies and have a nice meal. I don’t know whether I’ll decorate the house or anything like that — I’ll probably put up at least a table tree and some garlands. This may be my first empty-nest Christmas, and I’m feeling odd about it.
Will you be watching “Olive, the Other Reindeer” this holiday season?
We might arrange to come up and watch it with you again sometime if you’d like.
Regrets about the chosen family thing, dear. We’ve traditionally done breakfast with Kitten’s parents, but other than that, it’s a slow day for us. We’d be more than happy to do something with you.
Marcie and I would love to do something for holidays with you three, if you’re open to it. It’s usually a quiet, hang around the house kind of time for us so our schedules are wide open.
I’m sorry people aren’t being happy-making in your life right now. That sucks.