I am so angry. I am angry at all kinds of stupid, petty things. I want to hit people and not in that fun way. I want to scream. Everything is irritating me. I feel like I am almost vibrating with negative emotions. I feel almost psychotic. This is the kind of irrational anger people get medicated for.
I yelled at Noah. 🙁 Ok, so maybe the stuff I was yelling at him about was stuff that deserved a conversation but not my foul language and temper.
I don’t know how I have managed to keep it together with Shanna. This sucks.
The storm before the calm?
let it out, pal!
otherwise you’ll get gut cramps, or something.
This is the kind of irrational anger people get medicated for.
The problem is that medication is full-time, even when those episodes are intermittent. I get that way, too, and I really wish there was some drug I could take which would calm me down. Other than pot.
In my case, it’s sometimes a sign of blood sugar issues, and sometimes a sign of stresses I’ve been avoiding dealing with, or both.
Yeah, I don’t think I actually need full time medication. This is so rare for me. I think it is about my cycle coming back. All of a sudden it feels like all of my emotions over the past few months have been on mute and now they are full strength.
it’s called a “cycle” for a reason, i guess…
you’ll come around.
deep cleansing breath.
deep cleansing breath.
kick the fuck outta something.
deep cleansing breath.
deep cleansing breath.
Yeah, I am feeling better. (Brought the conversation back to my journal.) Noah and I had a long talk last night. He’s good at the long talks. He’s also good at not treating me like my mood swings make my thoughts/opinions invalid. Yay Noah.
and yay you, too!