Lately I’ve been having this dream. It’s almost a recurring dream but it picks up where the last left off and continues. Usually I love this sort of story dream. Not this one.
In it Noah keeps telling me that he made a mistake and he wants me to leave. Parenting and being a husband aren’t what he thought and he doesn’t want me or Shanna in his life. I woke up and talked to Noah about it. Of course he doesn’t actually want me to go anywhere.
I can’t shake how bad I feel though. I’ve spent the morning cuddling my daughter reminding myself that I will take care of her no matter what.
I hate feeling this way.
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That sounds like a really awful dream. I hope it leaves you alone soon.
I wish I was closer so I could give you real hugs. 🙁 I know first hand how awful and unsettled something like that can make you feel, no matter how much you tell yourself it’s not real. It doesn’t always stop the feelings, and dreams can seem so real sometimes.
We send you lots of good thoughts from back east.
Maybe these are the last creeping insecurities seeping out of your psyche?
I hate the seemingly realistic dreams that are full of bad feelings like that. B once had to wait an extra three weeks to call his parents because he dreamt that his father had said and done some very hurtful and intrusive things. We both knew it was irrational, but he couldn’t shake it, and didn’t want to talk to him again until he had.
*hug* The hind brain does some funny things, sometimes.