I have worked 41 hours in the past 3 days. I have 24 hours of training over the next 3 days and grading to do.
My house is messy. It is stressing me out.
I keep freaking out about personal things that I shouldn’t freak out about. I’m such a mess.
I feel like I am drowning right now. I know things will get better, but getting through the next couple of weeks is going to be brutal.
I keep getting angry about things and people in my personal life. I kind of like that I get to hide behind my job and not deal with people. There are a few people in particular right now whom I would cheerfully bash over the head with a pool stick. It isn’t so much what they have done as just that they exist and I am sick of dealing with them. Unfortunately, said activity would have negative repercussions on my social life. Fuck.
If you can’t beat them, arrange to have them beaten.
I’ve got some second-degree mafia connections lieing around I think, and certainly a few biker connections. Let me know if you need help:)
Hang in there, kiddo. The first year sucks filthy stinky monkey balls, but you’re a rock star, and you’re doing great. It’ll be ok. And the occasional bludgeoning is really quite fair game.
is it at all an option to pay for housecleaning? If it is, I strongly encourage you to do so. You deserve to lose (at least) one piece of stress.
*love*
Its okay.