Hm. This is one of those times to be reflective like. I’m 25 now. What in the hell am I doing with my life?
I have a brand-spankin-new husband who makes me deliriously happy. I have a great boyfriend who is quite cheerful about my various neuroticisms. I have a job I love and a the best chosen family ever. I have a nifty new car! I have an unfinished but already nifty tattoo.
I have a house. Legally half of this puppy is mine now. It’s an ok house and has potential to be a great house with some labor. I’m ok with that. I have almost no bio-family left to speak of. I have no free time nor extra energy for most anything.
I’m happy with most of my life, but there are big unavoidable things that are making me very sad. I’m not done with my masters yet and that is being hard for me. And as much as I am sad that I don’t get to see all of the nifty people in my life more I kind of feel like I need to cut back on what time I do spend with people if I am going to be as good at my job as I want to be and if I want to have the house I want to have. Being an adult is hard.
I’m not yet as good at managing my stress levels and my emotions as I want to be. I’m worlds better than I used to be, but I’m still not good enough. I still spend far too much time lashing out at Noah and that just isn’t ok. I have to have better control over myself before I have any right to have children or business doing it. I don’t want my kids to deal with the uncertainties of mood that currently run my life. I have some hard work ahead of me to get this into control.
I am not doing enough to be in as good of physical shape as I want to be in. I don’t know when or if I will ever get back to dancing. I am already too swamped with time commitments. It’s kind of hard because I have a very clear picture of where I want to be in life and it seems like it isn’t that far away and yet if I spend my entire life feeling this way I will always be discontent with myself and I will never be particularly happy. I have a hard time seeing the happy making things and instead I focus on the negative too much. This is yet another thing I need to work on.
Oh, and no one in my family knows I am married. I still don’t know how to feel about that.
Oh, and as far as I know–no presents this year. That is kind of an interesting welcome to adulthood. I’m not upset about it. Just… kind of noticing coldly.
Happy birthday.
I’m looking forward to seeing you this afternoon.
Happy Birthday! I hope your day is a good one. 🙂
I have no inscrutable advice. I just couldn’t find you online to say yay and happy RightKindofDay!
hippo, birdie… <== that's been so over-used
hey cutie – Happy birthday!
nothing more, just that.
ah.. well. happy Birthday
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday!
Happy birthday!
Oh, and as far as I know–no presents this year.
Like any of use could compete with that ring your husband gave you. 🙂
(Yes, I know, it wasn’t a birthday present decision, but…)
Happy Birthday *hug*
Happy birthday! And congrats again on the “brand-spankin-new husband.” That’s pretty awesome.
Happy birthday! I didn’t know yours was so close to mine.
*hugs* very happy belated birthday!
Shit, I am brainless, I didn’t make the connection between Noah’s ring and actual marriage.
A++ on the nuptuals!
As for age, I have to say it feels weird to be 25. Like, adulthood is finally making itself known. It’s hard to articulate.
I don’t wanna be an adult! I say we officially stage a protest!
Will there be punch and pie? More people will come to the protest if there is punch and pie.
Well, yes, we save the actual presents for the party.
So, ah, when is the party? It’s not too late.
I don’t think a party is likely to happen. It would take planning and cleaning and people to be available. How likely is it that people are available last minute? Not so much…