This morning I have…

Cleaned my kitchen and dealt with packaging and freezing all the food I needed to deal with. It’s about damn time (the stuff is still ok… I ate some…).
I cleaned my room and put away all of the clothes that have been accumulating.
I put away all the toys.
I sorted a bunch of stuff for me to list on freecycle tomorrow.
I hung my pink fuzzy shower curtain over my window in the living room.
Cleaned up my bathroom and put away all the stuff that Puppy dumped on me.

What I still have to do in my house:
clean off the coffee table
list all the stuff on freecycle and get it out of my house
organize some paperwork
hang all of my pictures
figure out some sort of ritual to make this space less toxic for me. I don’t like that I walk in here and feel empty and vulnerable and sad.
do laundry
little pick up stuff
clean the toilet and shower, vacuum… I think that is it. I think I can get most of that done this weekend even with the fact that I won’t be home for the rest of today. 🙂

Although–tomorrow I have to do lesson planning like crazy. And the scary lady is going to be observing my class. 🙁 I’m willing to bet that I will spend about three hours on that. I also need to finish my paper for assessment. I’m trying to decide if I am going to decorate for Christmas. Actually, that might be the very ritual I need to make this my home. Christmas is a huge deal for me personally and I have been building up a lot of negative associations over the last few years. I am single this year. I haven’t actually been ‘single’ through Christmas before. I have always been involved with somoene and my enjoyment was tied up in whether or not they were around/doing what I wanted to do. This year I get to figure out what matters to me and what rituals and traditions are just for me. That is both freeing and terrifying. Who am I?

9 thoughts on “This morning I have…

  1. tsgeisel

    Who am I anyway?
    Am I my resume?
    That is a picture of a person I don’t know.
    What does he want from me?
    What should I try to be?
    So many faces all around, and here we go.
    I need this job, oh God, I need this show.

    There’s no question you can ask that hasn’t already been asked in musical theater. Except maybe “Why a duck?” 🙂

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  2. davetoo

    How … sensible of you 🙂

    /me looks around at the chaos he’s living in, which grows more unnavigable daily as I take on new obsessions to distract me from dealing with it.

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