Today I am grateful for being the mom. I’m not every day so I thought I would note it today. (full disclosure: I am always grateful for my kids, but being the mom sucks rocks a lot of days.). Last night Shanna asked to sleep next to me. She doesn’t cosleep anymore so we had to maneuver a bit. Some time in the middle of the night she woke up, sat up just long enough to look for me then she threw herself across my chest to snuggle. She’s a cuddly kid in general but that instinctive “where is my mommy” in the middle of the night feels different. That is primal. I am the one she wants and needs and loves the most in the world.
Calli has been resisting napping alone. She wants to be on my lap. I haven’t been willing to give her this for most of her life but I’m doing it on vacation. Sometimes she wakes up just a little and starts to panic, then she notices that she is on me and her whole body relaxes. Oh Mommy.
This is why I had children. I wanted this. I want this so much that I ache with it. And I have it. It’s a gift. I constantly feel like I don’t deserve these amazing kids, but they think I am perfect. I am so grateful that I get to be Mommy.
I am grateful you get to be their Mommy. You are an awesome mom and I admire that about you. I may be mixed up about my own feelings on whether or not to have kids but I really delight in seeing your posts about your kids.
Hooray for Mommies!
Store all those good feeling up.
Make a really really huge reservoir of them.
When you think it’s huge enough, triple it times a thousand.
Then,
you can draw on it when they’re between the ages of 11 and 18.
SAVE SAVE SAVE! And save some more!
from Debs
you know what I just figured out? I was re-reading Anne of Ingleside yesterday, and her kids have crises (all the time) about all sorts of different things that require her magic as a mother. (and a lot, lot of them make her howl with laughter afterwards, but she always keeps a straight face when her child is distressed) and she encourages her children and all sorts of things. I was reading that yesterday, and it made me think of this post, and I thought Yeah! That’s what Krissy’s like as a mom.
ps. today’s captcha word is sitspate.