Shooting.

I think I should get off the internet for a bit. I should probably also stop talking to anyone with a penis about issues of violence. I find that after most of these conversations I believe that the only thing I can do is kill myself.

And I don’t even think any of them would care that much. Ok, Noah would care. But I’m feeling really bitter and pissy and nasty today about why he would care. So I should stop typing.

I can’t protect anyone. Not even myself. Sometimes I understand the mothers who kill their kids and then themselves. (Not that I want to kill my kids.)

But I feel very sorry that I brought them into this world. I’m sorry babies. I can’t make it better. I can’t keep you safe.

I’m so sorry.

2 thoughts on “Shooting.

  1. inflectionpoint

    I am so sorry. I have nothing. I just… dammit, that man did it. And another one will do it. And I don’t know when or where and I can’t tell the people I love how to not get murdered and I just go round and round and round and I am so sorry.

    I have been freaking out for days now because he’s a time bomb. And there are others. And jesus what do I do?

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