I was noticing yesterday that even when I am very happy with one person and enjoying their company and it is really great, I am still capable of missing someone else. This seriously blows my mind.

Noah told me that he has missed me. We haven’t spent one-on-one time in more than a week. I noticed upon seeing him that I have been seriously missing his energy as well. I felt overwhelming happiness that I got to experience his presense.

When he runs through my mind (which is somewhat frequently) I feel like a hole has been cut out of me where only Ricky fits. I miss him so much! I haven’t spent time with him individually in over a month. I feel like there is a huge void in me.

Even when I am with Tom sometimes I feel like I miss him. I miss the energy of what we used to share. I miss his attention. I don’t know how to fix the situation anymore.

I feel like I miss a lot about of people right now and I’m not sure how to deal with it. I sent Julia a card. I miss having her as a friend. I miss Anna. I feel like I miss my mother as well. 🙁

Waaaaaaaa!!!!!! Damnit I want to feel better already. What the fuck is up with my brain chemicals?!