I need to not date Ricky. I have come to this conclusion. It isn’t good for me. I really feel like I am pouring my emotional energy into a black hole when I am with him. He isn’t terribly interested in me and that means I should stop trying. It doesn’t matter how I feel about him–he doesn’t feel much for me. I leave his presense feeling totally rejected. I don’t need that in my life.

Noah rocks. I am so glad I have him in my life. He is sweet and supportive and dominant and sadistic. What a combination! Dude. I’m excited.

Paul: oh wait… uhm, another boy? What the hell am I doing?! Good lord. But he is very cool and we have been decently close friends for years. Now he gets around to telling me he would like to make me cry. Hm. Ok! 🙂

Yeah. stuff. dude.