Went to court. My lawyer talked to the doctor before the proceedings began. He was willing to drop the charges once my lawyer said he wouldn’t be able to use the police report as evidence without the cop there to testify.

This is why I hired a lawyer.

She also told him that if he insisted on going forward she would be pressing for a long-form trial. And she would push really hard for him to have to pay all of my fees. I’m pretty sure that factored into him deciding it wasn’t worth his time. She said she also told him that my Kaiser insurance is over as of tomorrow.

All in all it was a little scary but manageable. It’s over. Thank goodness.

I feel like the universe wants me to think harder about the words I use. In the future I won’t always get away with venting my anger. I’m getting too old.

And after rereading the letter from my shrink… yeah… it’s time to emotionally step back. I may even be kind of a manipulative shit and move to once a month sessions and just keep seeing her till I need the card re-upped. Then I’m gone on the trip. When I get back it is time to find a therapist who doesn’t believe I’m hopeless.