I’m not having a good day. I feel like this is kind of illustrating my problems. I am inappropriately controlling, right? That’s one of the narratives about me. But I also don’t say no to a lot of things because I don’t feel I have the right to be comfortable. I walk a fine line of being uncomfortable enough that I feel like I’m not asking for what I don’t deserve but trying to manage my reactions so I don’t freak out and hurt people.

I’m a volatile person. It’s a fact.

What does that mean? It means that I cry